January 30, 2004
"YOUR GOD IS TOO SAFE"
a challenge thrown out to me from a classmate and brother earlier this week.
hey! how dare you look down on my faith! are u saying you're a "better Christian" than i am?
again. "Your God is too safe."
I'm starting to learn what that means.
It means I can't live on the borderland. Where it's safe, and comfortable, and where i don't have to care about anyone but myself. where i can make my own rules and my own decisions and judge myself. that's not where God wants me to be.
how many times in the last week have i been too irritated by trivial things. being stuck at the back of the bus line. being shoved in the crowded halls at school. the way a classmate sneezes behind me. the way an ant crawls up onto the windowsill... in fact i think i've been more worried about my nose freezing than about mass genocide happening in some parts of the world. borderland.
i'm just starting to learn. am i feeling safe? NOT GOOD, that means i'm still in my comfort zone. it means i need God to come by and pop my pink and purple bubble...
